'cliche title about a new beginning'

today i met the emotional part of leaving the loveliest village on the plains. lately i have felt like my heart is about as sympathetic as a piece of charcoal. when everything seems like it should be sentimental and good-byes no longer mean for a few days, it has all felt familiar and routine. i suppose i'm used to leaving every may for the summer, but at the end of good-byes i have found myself disconnected. that was until this morning, in the most unlikely of places: the library. i have spent more time there this year than all of my other years of college combined. mainly because i found one place near a large row of windows, in a green chair, with no cell phone service, that i can sit and read and just escape. but this morning as i was sitting in the library studying for a final, well trying to at least. in the midst of being less than excited about studying, i started to realize that i am going to miss auburn. i think that i've hit that moment where i know its my time to leave. i feel really fortunate to leave when i am. i think it's a healthy place to be, knowing it's time, and going. there is no lingering and wondering, just a full, satiated heart. i have loved my time here. the Lord has used auburn so instrumentally in my life. i am most certainly leaving more convinced than ever that the gospel is worth giving my life for and excited that in a few short months i get to move to hong kong. i will gladly turn in my last scantron and leave a seat empty for the next freshman to come in. but as friends begin to pack up their belongings and i begin to to do the same, the realization that my time in auburn is over has started to sink in. the reality of it all is made more concrete with each conversation about hong kong and the amount of times i've said "last" in the past week. college really has been wonderful. and like most things in life, i feel as though ill appreciate it more in retrospect. so here's to the next adventure. it's like writing on the first page of a new journal, lovely.